This book is a chronicle of my thoughts and feelings, a narrative of what I have experienced on my journey to motherhood.

There is nothing as tragic as the loss of a baby, more so the loss of many babies. When I lost them, I lost pieces of myself that are hard to forget. The depth of love I felt for my angels hasn't faded. It has been documented that in the UK, 1 in 4 pregnancies end in loss, but conversations around the heart-breaking frequent experiences are few and far between.

To those of you who have experienced child or baby loss, you are not alone. I can relate to 'those' feelings. I recognise the changes to your DNA and in your outlook on life. It has been hard navigating the very foreign terrain of raw emotions of guilt, the numerous unanswered questions; all without a roadmap to help navigate them as they pop up.

I hope this book offers you an insight to be able to extend a helping hand to 'mothers' who have no physical children cradling their hip or suckling at their bosom; none neither in the pram... mothers with nothing to prove their claims, but an unsuccessful effort at wading through the foggy clouds of postnatal depression...