{"product_id":"this-is-me-trying-9781250891365","title":"This Is Me Trying","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003ePerfect for fans of Nina LaCour, \u003ci\u003eThis is Me Trying \u003c\/i\u003eis a profound and tender YA contemporary novel exploring grief, love, and guilt from author Racquel Marie. \u003c\/b\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eGrowing up, Bryce, Beatriz, and Santiago were inseparable. But when Santiago moved away before high school, their friendship crumbled. Three years later, Bryce is gone, Beatriz is known as the dead boy's girlfriend, and Santiago is back. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eThe last thing Beatriz wants is to reunite with Santiago, who left all her messages unanswered while she drowned alone in grief over Bryce's death by suicide. Even if she wasn't angry, Santiago's attempts to make amends are jeopardizing her plan to keep the world at arm's length--equal parts protection and punishment--and she swore to never let anyone try that again. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eSantiago is surprised to find the once happy-go-lucky Bea is now the gothic town loner, though he's unsurprised she wants nothing to do with him. But he can't fix what he broke between them while still hiding what led him to cut her off in the first place, and it's harder to run from his past when he isn't states away anymore. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eInevitably drawn back together by circumstance and history, Beatriz and Santiago navigate grief, love, mental illness, forgiveness, and what it means to try to build a future after unfathomable loss.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Square Fish\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 04\/14\/2026\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9781250891365\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 384\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 1.00lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 8.25h x 5.38w x 1.00d","brand":"Racquel Marie","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":52259548266677,"sku":"9781250891365","price":12.74,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0473\/0804\/6492\/files\/img_8ed4df29-17a6-4a64-977a-4c94dcb56090.jpg?v=1771342123","url":"https:\/\/pastforward.org\/products\/this-is-me-trying-9781250891365","provider":"Past Forward","version":"1.0","type":"link"}