{"product_id":"the-way-i-used-to-be-collectors-edition-9798347101443","title":"The Way I Used to Be (Collector's Edition)","description":"\u003cb\u003eThis special edition features a foil-stamped paper over board cover, stenciled sprayed edges, and bonus content!\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cb\u003eAmber Smith's extraordinary, \u003ci\u003eNew York Times\u003c\/i\u003e bestselling, TikTok sensation debut novel \"is a heart-twisting, but ultimately hopeful, exploration of how pain can lead to strength\" (\u003ci\u003eThe Boston Globe\u003c\/i\u003e) about a teenager struggling to cope in the aftermath of being assaulted.\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eEden has always been good at being good. Starting high school doesn't change that. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eWhat was once simple is now complex. What Eden once loved--who she once loved--she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened, but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eTold in four parts--freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year--this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, and of friendships broken and rebuilt, all while learning to embrace the power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Hardcover\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Margaret K. McElderry Books\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 12\/02\/2025\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9798347101443\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 416\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAccelerated Reader Quiz #\/Name: \u003c\/b\u003e180846 \/ Way I Used to Be\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eReading Level:\u003c\/b\u003e 4.4 \/ \u003cb\u003eInterest Level:\u003c\/b\u003e Upper Grade \/ \u003cb\u003ePoint Value:\u003c\/b\u003e 13\u003cbr\u003e","brand":"Amber Smith","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":51844112908469,"sku":"9798347101443","price":22.09,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0473\/0804\/6492\/files\/img_3e396c9c-f25f-4f75-b0f8-ee919bd47ec3.jpg?v=1759849413","url":"https:\/\/pastforward.org\/products\/the-way-i-used-to-be-collectors-edition-9798347101443","provider":"Past Forward","version":"1.0","type":"link"}