{"product_id":"the-straight-man-who-thought-he-was-gay-healing-childhood-sexual-trauma-through-my-body-9798994392201","title":"The Straight Man Who Thought He Was Gay: Healing Childhood Sexual Trauma Through My Body","description":"\u003cp\u003eThis memoir follows a man's healing from trauma-shaped, disembodied sex toward an embodied life. In clinical psychology, trauma is known to shape arousal and attachment, yet its effects on sexual identity are rarely discussed outside professional circles.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWritten from the nervous system outward, this memoir traces how early trauma can influence desire, bonding, and self-understanding. Born in Pakistan and later finding his way to the tech corridors of Silicon Valley, Faraz spends decades living a life that functions on the surface while carrying unresolved trauma in the body.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAcross classrooms and dance floors, offices and mountain trails, the narrative follows a long, nonlinear process of healing through steady relationships, somatic therapy, movement, and community. What once froze begins to thaw. What scattered slowly gathers.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWith an engineer's precision and a restrained, sensory voice, the book moves away from sanded-down wellness solutions and into lived bodily experience-how dissociation protects, how safety returns, and how agency re-emerges not through insight alone, but through learning to follow bodily instincts.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis is a first book, written for those-especially men-who carry invisible bruises and are ready to trade the mask of belonging for a deeper, embodied sense of self.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis memoir is about trauma, not sexual orientation. It affirms LGBTQ+ identities and does not question or challenge them.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Faraz Kalash\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 01\/21\/2026\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9798994392201\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 204\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 0.46lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 8.00h x 5.00w x 0.47d","brand":"Faraz Kalash","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":52733702504629,"sku":"9798994392201","price":15.29,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"url":"https:\/\/pastforward.org\/products\/the-straight-man-who-thought-he-was-gay-healing-childhood-sexual-trauma-through-my-body-9798994392201","provider":"Past Forward","version":"1.0","type":"link"}