{"product_id":"the-reality-of-wanting-my-bully-9781967235148","title":"The Reality of Wanting My Bully","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eKieran\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eJace Ryan is such a cliché. The popular star baseball player who can get any girl he wants.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eHe's also a close-minded jerk who can't seem to understand why a guy would ever want to wear makeup.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eHe won't leave me alone, claiming that what I choose to wear is distracting, that I'm a freak for being different. His bullying is annoying, and yeah, I might have been afraid once or twice, but I won't let it get to me.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI won't change who I am for anyone.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAnd despite what he might say in front of his friends, Jace doesn't actually seem to hate me as much as he claims.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eEspecially when we're alone and I'm on my knees for him.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eJace\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI have a lot of regrets in life, but the way things blew up with Kieran Delaney thirteen years ago is at the very top of my list.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI'm sure he hasn't thought about me since then, but not a day goes by that I haven't wondered what might have been. It's so easy to pretend like he's still in my life when I can watch all of his videos, like all of his posts. Who knew he'd become so famous for the very thing I used to bully him for?\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI signed up for Love Without Labels,  a label-free dating show, in an attempt to finally get over him. When they took away my phone, I thought it would finally help me move on. I found someone new, someone who made me laugh and forget about Kieran. Someone who I thought I could have a future with. But when I met him in person, I realized it's been him the whole time.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe man I hurt all of those years ago.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe man I've loved in silence ever since.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eHe might think things are fake between us, but I know this is my one chance to prove I'm not the same guy who broke his heart.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe Reality of Wanting My Bully is a 137k-word, dual-POV romance told in two parts. It's based on real-life bullying set in 2010-2012. It is NOT a dark romance. It's a story about the challenges of growing up without positive support, healing, forgiveness, and realizing that the people we were at eighteen aren't the people we're destined to become.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Hardcover\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Lexi Amber Publishing\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 12\/04\/2025\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9781967235148\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 486\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 1.80lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 9.00h x 6.00w x 1.25d","brand":"Lexi Amber,Benson","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":52122344587445,"sku":"9781967235148","price":25.49,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0473\/0804\/6492\/files\/img_6bc746bc-3c11-40ba-87db-4f395778f9b6.jpg?v=1766512640","url":"https:\/\/pastforward.org\/products\/the-reality-of-wanting-my-bully-9781967235148","provider":"Past Forward","version":"1.0","type":"link"}