{"product_id":"i-love-you-so-much-its-killing-us-both-9781593767600","title":"I Love You So Much It's Killing Us Both","description":"\u003cb\u003eSusan Choi's \u003ci\u003eTrust Exercise\u003c\/i\u003e meets Nick Hornby's \u003ci\u003eHigh Fidelity\u003c\/i\u003e in a Black woman's coming-of-age story, chronicling a life-changing friendship, the interplay between music fandom and identity, and the slipperiness of sanity\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eSet in the suburbs of Los Angeles and New York City, \u003ci\u003e I Love You So Much It's Killing Us Both\u003c\/i\u003e is an immersive journey into the life and mind of Khaki Oliver, who's perennially trying to disappear into something: a codependent friendship, an ill-advised boyfriend, the punk scene, or simply, the ether. These days it's a meaningless job and a comfortingly empty apartment. Then, after a decade of estrangement, she receives a letter from her former best friend. Fiona's throwing a party for her newly adopted daughter and wants Khaki to join the celebration. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eKhaki is equal parts terrified and tempted to reconnect. Their platonic love was confusing, all-consuming, and encouraged their worst impulses. While stalling her RSVP, Khaki starts crafting the perfect mixtape--revisiting memories of formative shows, failed romances, and the ups and downs of desire and denial--while weighing the risks and rewards of saying yes to Fiona again. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eOne song at a time, from 1980s hardcore to 2010s emo, the shared and separate contours of each woman's mind come into focus. Will listening to the same old songs on repeat doom Khaki to a lonely life of arrested development? Or will hindsight help her regain her sense of self and pave a healthy path for the future, with or without Fiona?\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Hardcover\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Soft Skull\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 02\/13\/2024\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9781593767600\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 336\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 1.25lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eReview Citations: \u003c\/strong\u003e\u003ci\u003ePublishers Weekly\u003c\/i\u003e 10\/23\/2023\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e 11\/01\/2023 pg. 49\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003eKirkus Reviews\u003c\/i\u003e 12\/01\/2023\u003cbr\u003e","brand":"Mariah Stovall","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":43418390233269,"sku":"9781593767600","price":23.8,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0473\/0804\/6492\/files\/img_070a2e98-75a8-41a5-803b-52c696508687.jpg?v=1703004893","url":"https:\/\/pastforward.org\/products\/i-love-you-so-much-its-killing-us-both-9781593767600","provider":"Past Forward","version":"1.0","type":"link"}