{"product_id":"blue-lights-dark-mind-9781068282706","title":"Blue Lights Dark Mind","description":"\u003cp\u003eFor nearly three decades, Ryan MacDonald wore his uniform with pride - serving on the frontlines of warzones and major crime scenes alike. But behind the uniform and beneath the armour, a silent battle raged. \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBlue Lights, Dark Mind takes you deep inside the rarely spoken truth of life in uniform-where moments of calm can shatter in an instant, and the cost of service is often paid for in sleepless nights, fractured relationships, and hidden scars. From the blood-soaked streets of war to the taped-off alleys of murder investigations, this raw and unflinching memoir exposes the reality of PTSD, the weight of public duty, and the painful journey to reclaim identity after the uniform is gone. \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eHeart breaking, honest, and ultimately hopeful- this is not just a story about trauma. It's a story about fighting your way back\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Paperback\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Ryan MacDonald\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 10\/27\/2025\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9781068282706\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 336\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 1.04lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 8.00h x 5.25w x 0.91d","brand":"Ryan MacDonald","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":52051693764789,"sku":"9781068282706","price":17.84,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0473\/0804\/6492\/files\/img_18567568-be8c-4c93-9229-9dce0964e716.jpg?v=1764047717","url":"https:\/\/pastforward.org\/products\/blue-lights-dark-mind-9781068282706","provider":"Past Forward","version":"1.0","type":"link"}