{"product_id":"at-dark-i-become-loathsome-9798212179027","title":"At Dark, I Become Loathsome","description":"\u003cp\u003eFrom Eric LaRocca--Bram Stoker Award-nominated and Splatterpunk Award-winning author of Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke--comes At Dark, I Become Loathsome, a grim yet gentle, horrifying yet hopeful, intense tale of death, trauma, and love.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\"If you're reading this, you've likely thought that the world would be a better place without you.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eA single line of text, glowing in the darkness of the internet. Written by Ashley Lutin, who has often thought the same--and worse--in the years since his wife died and his young son disappeared. But the peace of the grave is not for him--it's for those he can help. Ashley has constructed a peculiar ritual for those whose desire to die is at war with their yearning to live a better life.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eStruggling to overcome his own endless grief, one night Ashley finds connection with Jinx--a potential candidate for Ashley's next ritual--who spins a tale both revolting and fascinating. Thus begins a relationship that traps the two men in an ever-tightening spiral of painful revelations, where long-hidden secrets are dragged, kicking and screaming, into the light.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eOnly through pain can we find healing. Only through death can we find new life.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBook discussion questions are available here: https: \/\/s3.us-west-2.amazonaws.com\/www.blackstoneaudio.com\/docs\/At%20Dark%20I%20Become%20Loathsome%20Discussion%20Questions.pdf\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Hardcover\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Big Bald Head\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 01\/28\/2025\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9798212179027\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 240\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eReview Citations: \u003c\/strong\u003e\u003ci\u003ePublishers Weekly\u003c\/i\u003e 09\/23\/2024\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003eLibrary Journal\u003c\/i\u003e 10\/01\/2024 pg. 99\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e 11\/01\/2024 pg. 34\u003cbr\u003e","brand":"Eric Larocca","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":44870719602869,"sku":"9798212179027","price":22.09,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0473\/0804\/6492\/files\/img_ded10599-9b34-4952-9489-2d63e3bcf45c.jpg?v=1733241153","url":"https:\/\/pastforward.org\/products\/at-dark-i-become-loathsome-9798212179027","provider":"Past Forward","version":"1.0","type":"link"}